May 8.
It’s been 2 months, 4 weeks and 2
days since you left. How are you? Are you doing fine? I didn't ask you this in
person or through text ‘cause I know that I should just continue moving on. I
deleted your number on my phone, again ‘cause I’ll just keep on texting you if
I didn't It’s a great idea though. I’m also having troubles in sleeping this
past few days (fyi) I keep on thinking about some things. Some of them are
about you, how you left me, how you didn’t explain why and why leave all of a
sudden. I have so many questions to ask you but I don’t have the guts to ask. I
can see that your life is ok now so I guess if I asked you the questions that
are running through my head, it wouldn't change a thing about us. I must admit
that I’m still wasting my time wondering, what if it didn’t happen? The
“leaving me” part. Oh fuck it’s happening again. Ok stop. I just want to know the
real reason why you left. I didn’t believe you when you said “kasi yun yung
tama”. It’s hunting me dude! So please, just say it -_-
I’m tired of waking up everyday
feeling hopeless, that I’ll never get over you. Realizing that I should have
been much better. I’m tired of convincing myself that I should
forget you, be happy and just enjoy life. But guess what, I can’t. I’m the kind
of girl that treasures every moment that I have with my special someone. Maybe
that’s why?
You’re the only guy that made me
feel that I’m special, makes me smile whenever I’m in a bad mood, talks with me
on the phone even if it’s already late, still laughs whenever my jokes are
corny, replying to my texts when you have classes, and many more. You’re not
just any guy ok, you’re the guy that Shauna Lacson “loved” and “adored”. We both had our mistakes, we chose wrong decisions
and some other stuff. And in the future I will just laugh it all out, for sure.
I will surely miss the good-sweet- happy-weird- bipolar times we had *thumbs up* the next girl you’re going to be with is
going to be lucky having you. And the next thing you know.. I’m happy too! Yey.
Haha.
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